Fear and Texture Part II: No Expectations
January 6, 2008 — ottersflame
When last we left my studio, I was struggling with myself whether to keep a bead from shattering in a cold water bath or let it live, free and wild. Well I allowed it to live and there it sits, in a large pile of non distinct, boring beads. I knew I should have given it a plunge into the water and put it out of my misery. Yet, still with every bead there is something to learn. Sometimes I learn something I want to try again, other times the lesson is what NOT to do.
I said I would be talking about ways I break through artistic fear, self imposed barriers I erect so I wont “color outside the lines”. Well I sat down and had to think hard on that one. Yes I do certain things that help me but I didn’t realize it was something I would have a hard time explaining.
I believe these steps I take to break through where I am currently at, may have become ingrained habits. Somewhere in the back of my mind, that thought is a bit unsettling, the fact that what I do for breakthroughs has become habit. I think I need to fix this but I will address that another time.
I used to draw and paint quite a bit. I would spend hours drawing or painting the finest detail in everything I created. I used to draw with the finest, smallest graphite or charcoal I could find. I used to paint with the smallest paintbrushes I could get away with and still finish a painting this century. I only took one drawing class in my life and the exercises I use to break out of my rut are inspired by the man who taught that class. He did everything he could to make me feel like I was drawing with boxing gloves on. Instead of the fine control I was used to, he would make me draw with the largest permanent markers he could find and other similar bulky items.
I remember the absolute and total frustration I would feel every day in class. I couldn’t understand why he thought this type of exercise was going to help me. Although it had always been my goal to work “looser” as an artist, this was totally ridiculous. He would constantly harp on me, telling me to stop trying to control the minute details and I would be able to draw what I saw instead of drawing what I thought something should look like. The only reason I stayed in the class was because I found him to be interesting and we ended up becoming friends. Otherwise I would have left after the first few classes.
One day after dinner I sat there absentmindedly sketching the items on the table. I remember being relatively distracted by problems of the day and I wanted to sketch as a way of de-stressing. The only thing I had close by was a ball point pen and I figured if I could draw with a bulky permanent marker I could draw with a ball point pen. When I was done with the sketch, much to my amazement it was one of the better drawings I had ever done. I instantly realized that due to the distractions and the fact that I was using a cheap ball point pen, I had no expectations of this sketch and that was the very reason it turned out so well.
How does all this translate into glass? I want to cover an exercise in creativity that help me. The one I will deal with in this post is to make a bead limited to only two pieces of random glass I pick up from my work surface. The trick is, I am not supposed to look at my work surface as I pick my two pieces of glass. It may be anything from a striking red color to a reactive twistie I have made and just dropped on my work surface after I applied most of it.
What I pick up is what I will use, no ifs ands or buts. I may be mixing a lot of silver with copper or sulfur or any other combination of glass chemistry that may or may not work. If it works, great, if it doesn’t work, it doesn’t matter. I have no expectations of what I am going to make so I cannot be disappointed in the outcome and I find I learn a lot from doing this. The photo in this post is a bead I made by picking up two random pieces of glass. I hope you try this one. Just sit down at the torch, grab some glass and have fun….and have no expectations.
Otter is a bead maker who blogs from the Pacific Northwest
















I was working in my studio last night finishing off a bead. I was marvering the poor bead to death. “Aha, there, all finished, marvered nice and smooth and perfectly cylindrical.” I sat and looked at this nice, smooth well formed bead and just felt like giving it a cold water bath and shattering the entire thing right then and there. I had made a nice boring bead. I did add some heat and let it sag just a bit off center but I did not shatter it in cold water.